hey, blog! it's almost been a year since I wrote.
and, a lot has happened.
to give a pov today, I just want to tell the world I am genuinely happy.
to start with, after the last blog I made, it was the months of myself. I had time to free myself from commitments and breathe as I could for myself. you know, I thought that I could ever be like that. but now, I was so happy during that season. I learned to love and value myself.
i am proud to have made it through the pain.
as days passed, it was not my priority to commit again. fling, yes. relationship, no. I knew I was not ready.
but, a twist had happened.
louis came into my life. unexpectedly.
to tell our story, I have known about him since December 2022 but informally. I did not even like him upon visiting his profile.
fast forward, February 9th. the day. it was not part of the plan for him to come over. it was a last 2 hours decision. so normally ofc, I did not expect anything.
however, upon seeing him steps away, he was shining. I was not even able to look at him afterward. dinner, minutes had passed, and we had not interacted. but he initiated. kilig. how he wants to catch up on how much I drank. and even set aside how i want my samg be cooked.
first impression, i knew that he knows how to make a girl fall. and i did.
but, the point is, he came when i was not looking for love. and as i thought that i would never feel "love" again, i felt it, without holding back from the past.
he's a risk.
he knows how to play. while I am scared of getting torn again.
yet, he's a risk i am willing to take. i don't know why i am so vulnerable. i always choose to give love, kindness, and patience.
i hope, he will not leave me. he will not unlove me. he will be true to his words. and, i pray he'll be the last.
words are not enough how much i love him and thankful for him.
my louis. i love you.
