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hi blog

Kakatapos lang namin mag-usap, and I bursted - the things that kept running into my mind for the past weeks and days.

Hindi ako nagagalit sa kanya o sa kanila kaya sumabog ako. Pero alam mo ung reason is the fear na hindi nanaman ako piliin nya, the fear of crashing all the dreams we've built together.  Lahat, natatakot akong mawala sya, ulit, sobra sobra.

That's why I'm preparing myself for that. Handa na ulit akong mawasak at umiyak. Pero sana hindi, lord lab mo ko dibaaa? 

Ugh ewan ko ba.

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Good evening blog.

Nakita ko lang ung story ng kapatid nya. Tapos, naalala ko ung birthday ko. Ung kala ko wala sya, tas sinurprise ako ng loko pocha nakauwi na pala ng pinas hnggg!! Pero imbis na mainis ako non, nilamon ako ng kilig. Hanggang ngayon na inaalala ko yon kinikilig parin ako. Alam kong wala syang kasweetan, but when he makes his own move putangina para akong lalamunin ng lupa. Now, I've realized that I should not push him to be like this and that, because he has his own ways.

I had the best man. He always is. Tuwing sinasabi nya na sino ba naman sya para sakin, gusto kong sabihin na sobra sobra pa sya. Hindi ko man laging nasasabi or naeexpress sa kanya yon, pero I could not see anyone better than him. HE'S A TREASURE. He is more than what he thinks he is.

I love him, for every second of my life since September 16, 2014.