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Hi, this is my random thought/s atm.

Dumating na ung araw na pinakaka kinakatakot ko sa lahat.

It has been already a week since we broke up.

Yes, ang daming beses na kami nagbreak, but, this time, it's different.

Walang message.
Walang paghahabol na nagaganap.
Walang maski ni isang movement akong natatanggap sa kanya.

So maybe this is really the end.

I still want to hold on to what he said, na hindi sya magjojowa, na magpapari sya, and if there's still a chance liligawan nya ulit ako.

Pero....
Ayoko na umasa pa sa mga salitang yon. Kung ung mga salita ngang "hindi kita iiwan" at "tayo lang lagi", hindi napanindigan. Iyon pa kaya?

So dear self,
MOVE FORWARD. You know there are still a lot of things waiting for you in the future which will be greater than you have and had.

To you,
you know whoever you are. I hope you will have your future like what you always had dreamed. Thank you for spending the 5 years of your life with me.Till we meet again, goodbye

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Today's highlight of my day aside from the milktea scene, is I saw a post of 2 old women (sisters) who are taking care of each other in a hospital.

That post, made me realize a lot of things.
Specifically how lucky I am, and we are of what we have. Ang dami nating reklamo sa buhay, yet other people are suffering more than us.

Whoever are you reading this, I hope you see the world in a wider lense. I hope that when you see someone who needs help, do not hesitate to. Small things, small amounts thats okay. When you have nothing, pray for them and that would be more than enough.

Wag tayo maging makasarili or what. Lend a hand to those who need. But do it because you know that it is from your heart, nothing more.

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HI, THIS IS MY FIRST ENTRY. Also, the reason I am putting here my thoughts is that I feel that nobody would understand me. So, if whoever you are reading this, I would like to thank you for sparing me your time.

I would like to tell here about how am I right now. The past few weeks has been very difficult for me.

Ang dami kong thoughts about acads, friends and lovelife.... these are what I think  about especially if matutulog na.

For me, parang mas naging productive ako these past few weeks. I somehow got to do what I had to. Pero I still feel less. My insecurities, naglalabasan sila. 😓😪 I wanted to be more what I am now so I am trying my best everyday. Naiinis ako kasi di ko alam kung paano ko ihhandle ang kaliwa't kanan na school works and lessons. Naiintindihan ko naman na this is for ourselves. Pero sana.... hay nako wala rin naman ako magagawa kundi mag comply.

Friends,,,, di ko alam kung do they consider me as their friend. Alam kong kilala nilala ako, and maybe gusto nila ako hayaan magisa muna or what. Pero sad na there's no one asking me if I am okay kasi I still smile and laugh and act normally. I hope I would have a friend na kahit di ako magsalita, malalaman nya if ok ako or hindi. Not bec I want attention, pero dahil alam nya na kelangan ko ng masasandalan.

Lovelifeee,,, hay nakakapagod sa totoo lang. We've been through the same cycle. Hindi na kami nag ggrow. But I would like to tell Niño right now how much I love him kahit ang sama sama at di nya deserve ung ginagawa ko. That no one can make my heart beat again. Hahahahaha ang drama pero sa true lang.
But then suddenly I somehow stalked his profile a little and something wc made me conclude that maybe may something sa kanila ni ate mo gurl. To his friends, if u know something is wrong, DO NOT TOLERATE it. Hindi lahat is katuwaan lang.
Half of me still wants to hold on to what he said that he will wait for me. And half of me says na tama na bc we both dont deserve what we have???

Hay life ang hirap mo talaga! Amen.